Honest Today

Depression is not one thing. Depression is complicated and constantly changing. Today my monster is extremely irritable. Today overhearing conversations that are simple and commonplace make me want to scream. Today eyerolls are my weapon of choice. Today mood swings are killing me. Today I want to scream. Today I want to cry. Today I want to bash my head against a wall. Today I know that there is no magic cure because even all of the good things of today cannot make the frustration dissapear. Today is not my day. So no depression, you have not won. But I'm not going to fight you anymore today. I'm going to hide in my room and fall asleep early and hope you for a better tomorrow.