Beginning Again

For the first time in my adult life I feel a sense of stability. My boyfriend and I are living together, I have a job as a teller with my bank, and recently, after years of struggling with depression, I decided to seek help. I spoke with my doctor, and she gave me a prescription for Escitalopram (generic for Lexapro). I have not been diagnosed with depression, and I have not yet spoken to a therapist about my problems, but I started taking my prescription last month. So far it seems to be helping. I feel like my mood is generally more stable, but sometimes I still feel anxious and overwhelmed.

When I was a teenager I thought that having a boyfriend would fix all of my problems. I thought that if someone else loved me that nothing else would matter. Now that I am an adult, I know how naive I was. As wonderful as my relationship is, my issues with food have not been magically healed by having a boyfriend. Time after time I have pledged to lose weight. I have made plans, I have set goals, I have vowed to revamp my entire life. Time after time I have failed. Now I feel that I am finally ready to commit to making a change. I know that my weight loss journey will never be easy, but I believe that I will be successful in my endeavor with the love and support of my friends, my family, and most importantly my God.

I currently weigh 258.6 lbs. My goal is to lose 93.6 lbs. over 40 weeks beginning July 21. I plan to lose 3.6 lbs. per week during the first four weeks, then 1.8 lbs. each following week.

August 18 244.2 lbs.              Get an ActiveLink Activity Monitor,

                                                    and Hand Weights

September 15 229.8 lbs.        Get a Food Scale, Oil Sprayer,

                                                    and Salad Dressing Cruet

October 13 215.4 lbs.            Get Heart Tattoo

November 10 201 lbs.           Get a Mani-Pedi

December 8 193.8 lbs.          Get Dad Tattoo

January 5 186.6 lbs.              Get a New Wallet

February 2 179.4 lbs.            Get a New Purse

March 2 172.2 lbs.                Get Key Tattoo

March 30 165 lbs.                 Get a New Wardrobe

I may re-work goals/ rewards until July 21. I will not receive rewards unless goals are met.